My Desire is NOT my Will.
This morning, as I was walking with God, Luke 22:42 was brought to my mind. I couldn’t help recall what author, Kevin Adams, wrote in his book The Extravagant Fool. In his book, Kevin states that there is a difference between our desire and our will. For most people, this is an extremely hard concept to grasp. Even as I sit here writing this blog, it’s still one of those items of the Bible that confuses me. God gave me this verse again today, though, and I believe it was for a reason.
Friday, March 31st, was officially my last day at a Fortune 200 company. This was the will of mine as I have felt the Holy Spirit leading me in a different direction for a while now. God’s will, however, was for me to stay, learn, develop, and grow as He used the job for multiple reasons in my life. As we see in Luke, Jesus is praying for a will other than His Father’s. This is where it gets complicated. Just as my will was to go and give into the test of the Holy Spirit (I wasn’t ready which is why it didn’t happen right away), Jesus had a test from the Father. His desire, though, was to please His Father first and foremost, regardless of His will.
We Think They’re The Same
If you’re confused yet, I’m glad I’m not alone! I have always believed my desire and my will were the exact same thing. Throughout my whole life, I have never looked at this verse this way. I’ve looked at it as most of you probably have; Jesus’ will was not to die on the cross, but He wanted to follow God the Father’s Will. That’s not incorrect thinking, and I’m not challenging that. I 100% agree. What we have to look at, in a deeper context, is how Jesus’ will and His desire were not the same thing. My desire is to honor and please God in my heart, my thoughts, my actions, and my life. My will, though, is what I want to do while I’m here on Earth.
Abraham is another good example of Desire vs. Will. Abraham was told by God to go and sacrifice his child. As a father, I can’t even imagine being asked such a thing. Abraham’s will was obviously not to kill Isaac, but his desire was to honor and serve God and follow His will. If you don’t know the story, spoiler alert, God provided a sacrifice in Isaac’s (son of Abraham) place. God was pleased with the desire of Abraham to follow as commanded and blessed him through Isaac. Read the full story here in Genesis 22.
Don’t Stop Growing – It’s His Will
It may take some time, a long time, for us to fully understand this concept. As I said earlier, I still don’t fully grasp it, as I’ve used desire and will interchangeably for so many years. I think that may be part of God’s plan for us though. We are brought to light these differences by growing closer to Him. Whether we are growing closer to Him by reading His Word, walking with Him, or looking for His wisdom in others’ words, I believe it’s His will for us to learn and develop ourselves constantly. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 says to “pray without ceasing.” God means to constantly ask Him for those fancy things we see on TV. Rather, He wants us to continually talk with Him so He can constantly teach us, and we can grow closer to Him. That’s His will for us (verse 18).
If this concept is difficult to understand, I’m right there with you. Matt Ham and Kevin Adams started YouPrint.life for people who want to go deeper. I encourage you to check their site out and grab their book – Learning to Feel The Word. If you don’t do so already, I challenge you to dive into His Word, pray without ceasing, take walks with Him, or whatever you need to do to grow closer to Him. I believe in iron sharpening iron so I would love to hear your thoughts on this topic. Connect with me via the comments below or my Facebook page to have a healthy (civil) conversation about God giving us a will and a desire.